SORRY

Assalammualaikum w.b.t.

In the name of Allah, the most Kind and the most Merciful

Blessing and peace be upon Muhammad , the last and the final of the prophets.

~SALAM ASPIRASI….SALAM REJUVENASI

SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE EASIEST WORD

So sorry for all that i've done towards you guys :(
Please don't expect a Deans List from me this semester :(
I'm just hoping that I pass now.

ketakutan.kekalutan.kebingungan. ke'confuse'an.kegilaan.


Scary exam week makes you want to jump off a cliff~~

YA ALLAH,
PLEASE HELP ME FOR MY FINAL EXAMS!!!
AND GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE HAVING THEIR EXAMS TOO!!

EMO-ISH STATE

Assalammualaikum w.b.t.

In the name of Allah, the most Kind and the most Merciful

Blessing and peace be upon Muhammad , the last and the final of the prophets.

~SALAM ASPIRASI….SALAM REJUVENASI

~Love Em btw, hehe~

EMO-ISH STATE

Oh, how I dislike crowds, hypocrites, cats, guys, noise, dirty environment,
..surtout le exams!!!! Getting more stressed than ever as exams approach. But, ……. I’m glad I’m still in Islam, still in faith, still not crossing the boundaries of a Muslim (hopefully)

The life of this world is nothing but a game and a diversion. The hereafter is better for those who guard against evil. So, will you not use your intellect?

(Surah Al-An’am : 32)

I am only a weak human being, therefore, at times, I can be blinded by this world and its accessories. I was terribly down previously, feeling confused, angry…So, during Ramadhon, I asked Him to show me something, and He fulfilled it, Alhamdulillah..:) I did feel a sliver of doubt, but He proved that His way is, and will always be the way of truth, the path filled with light and peace. That there should be no hesitation in following what He asks me to do. That the best way of life is when we follow His path, the path of Islam and follow Muhammad S.A.W, the last Prophet’s teachings.

He has given you everything you have asked Him for. If you tried to number Allah’s blessings, you could never count them. Man is indeed wrongdoing, ungrateful. (Surah Ibrahim : 34)

In the past, as an atheist, I never felt at peace, did idiotic things that I now regret (man I’m glad I hated d taste of alcohol and cigarette,…….whoopsy :p), always felt that my life was incomplete, and there was a part of me that was searching for something, restless, but I did not know what it was back then. Have you guys ever felt like I did?

Now, I know, all that time, I was missing Him. Wanting HIM to be in my life~~

My friends who knew me back then would now go like, OMG, WTH happened to you?? (That part was fun) But, even though my principles, my life has changed, I still don’t know a lot of things bout religion (due to my previous ignorance) and it saddens me sometimes that people judge too much, expect too much, and mostly condemn too much. I am still crawling, learning, and always stumbling, so, please, help me get up, don’t kick me on my rear end instead:p (teehee) But I understand too, that these tests are His way to make us stronger, and a reminder for us to remember Him.

Allah does not wrong people in any way; rather, it is people who wrong themselves. (Surah Yunus : 44)

Insya Allah, I will not turn back to that dark and meaningless life. His love and blessings is all that matters to me now. I don’t wanna discard the Hidayah (btw, Hidayah, Kak Reen and cik Nada, I miss u) that He has given me. No matter how upset, how terrible, I know have Him near me.

Please, don’t leave me, I don’t have anything if I don’t have You, I am nothing without You…My only Lord, You have shown the purity of this path, so, please, guide me at all times, forgive my sins as I am only a weak human, don’t let me be blinded by love for humans and this world, give me strength to work for the sake of my deen, and in the end, let me die for Your sake, for it is the greatest honour a human could ever want for…

YA ALLAH, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING.

I’m gonna share with you guys my favorite ayat in the Qur’an. The language is oh so amazingly beautiful, the comparison is so out of this world, which makes for certain, that the Qur’an came from our Lord.

I seek refuge with Allah from the outcast devil.

In Allah’s name, the most Beneficent, the most Merciful.

35. Allah is the light of the heavens and the earth. The parable of His light is as (if there were) a niche and within it a lamp, the lamp is in a glass, the glass as it were a brilliant star, lit from a blessed tree, an olive, neither of the east nor of the west, whose oil would almost glow forth (of itself), though no fire touched it. Light upon light! Allah guides to His light whom He wills. And Allah sets forth parables for mankind, and ALLAH is All- Knower of everything.

(Surah An- Nur vers 35)

~FIN~

RAINBOWS..

Assalammualaikum w.b.t.

Bismillah hir-Rahma nir-Raheem

In the name of Allah, the most Kind and the most Merciful

Blessing and peace be upon Muhammad , the last and the final of the prophets.

~SALAM ASPIRASI….SALAM REJUVENASI

RAINBOWS.…

It was dark outside and the rain was falling heavily. She kept staring at the window, without bothering to look at the people around her. There was silent tears sliding down her cheeks, but still, she just kept quiet, and ignored the negative remarks and sniggers from the people surrounding her.

“Dah besar-besar masih nak melalak lagi” those words, those words…She felt, as if the world was being really cruel towards her, attacking her, from all corners.

Was there no more sympathy in this world? No pity ? No understanding? No love??

She wanted to move, run away from this house, but found herself incapable of moving. Her courage had failed her the moment her tears fell, betraying her, exposing her fragility. She felt weak, helpless and drowning.

Finally, her father stood up and went towards the door. Again, she paid no heed to everyone. When her mother wanted to kiss her goodbye, she just ran away. The pain was too great for her to bear. She heard her grandmother calling angrily after her. The tears fell more heavily.

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She locked her door, ignoring her stepmum’s angry glare. From her room she could hear her stepmum screaming.

“Why didn’t you force her to stay ?.You promised me she’d go today!!!! I …”

She quickly put on her headphone; she didn’t want to hear their voices. All she wanted right now was somebody to hug her, console her and tell her that everything will be all right. Her dad used to do that, but when he re-married, things changed. She was rude to her stepmum, and he could not understand why suddenly she became an angry person. But she couldn’t tell him how she felt. She felt he was beyond her reach already. He had another priority, he had other people in his life..

And no, she is not Cinderella. Her face is plain and simple. She does not have the softness to charm a bird out of its tree. She was accustomed to pain and hurt, so she was hostile and rude to everyone. Her family wasn’t rich, they were poor and ignorant. She herself never went to school, her education simply did not matter to both her parents and her.

She reached for her worn yellow diary on her desk , she wanted to pour everything in it. The diary was her only friend, the only one who understood her, the only one listening to her woes. From the window opposite her desk, she could see that the rain had stopped and from the corner of her eyes, she could see something outside.

She ran outside her house, ignoring the raging war, now in full blast between her dad and stepmum. Yes, there it was.....

She smiled. It was a pretty rainbow.

A commotion in front of the empty house beside hers attracted her attention. And then she saw them. The girl with the blue tudung, laughing merrily while the mother hugged her shoulder, also laughing. She stared at them, feeling a growing pang of jealousy in her heart.

The tears started flowing again. She walked slowly back in her house.

What she didn't know was that he had been watching her from the moment she walked outside.

FINDING TRANQUILITY

Assalammualaikum w.b.t.

Bismillah hir-Rahma nir-Raheem

In the name of Allah, the most Kind and the most Merciful

Blessing and peace be upon Muhammad , the last and the final of the prophets.

~SALAM ASPIRASI….SALAM REJUVENASI~

FINDING TRANQUILITY

The past few weeks have been smooth-sailing for me, so, on the wake of a current hardship, the first two days were unbearable as I searched blindly for means of escape. That night, I prayed that He would solve my problems and let the burden off my shoulders.

The next day, when I waited for my friends in the surau, I saw two books, and being a bookie, I couldn’t resist opening the book (Riyadus Solihin). The moment I read some of the contents, I was completely stunned. In that book was, His way of enlightening me. It was, as if, he was addressing me personally. I’ve always heard the statement that God is nearer to you than your own veins, but this time, on that day, I felt that I really understood that statement.

The cause of hurt still existed, but remembering Him, knowing, and believing in Him, the pain seemed oblivious. Why? Because no matter how much life threw me, all that matters is that I have Him, His love, and hope that my existence, my actions pleases Him, and all hardships that I face is His tests to me, to see how much I would endure, for His sake. In a way, He did not ease my burden, but rather, bestowed me the strength to bear it. I think I prefer the latter :)

In Perak, I’ve had my share of experiences. I became Kesatria Commander, Committee for Islamic club there, joined English debates, became Vice Pres MPP, but, all those, only served to make me busy, but in reality, my life, or rather, my heart was still empty as I lacked time to gain knowledge of religious matters. Coming here, after several months of thinking, particularly after 'the' hardship, I have made up my mind, to bring to a permanent halt altogether, all unnecessary activities and concentrate on my deen and my studies. But then, everything can happen only if He permits so. Humans plan, but Allah’s arrangement is the best and most wise.

I have entered my name for weekly religious classes, and just found out about more religious classes outside, which I plan in joining. I want myself to be near Him, I hope that all the knowledge that I will acquire will make me a better person and closer to Him.

Yes, it’s a full stop, well, at least for participation in camps, sports, recreational activities, clubs and societies, all of them being activities that I am fond of :(

Pray that I achieve His blessings people :)

WHEN THE TIME HAS COME

Assalammualaikum w.b.t.

Bismillah hir-Rahma nir-Raheem

In the name of Allah, the most Kind and the most Merciful

Blessing and peace be upon Muhammad , the last and the final of the prophets.

~SALAM ASPIRASI….SALAM REJUVENASI~

**Holy Qur'an**

" Tell those who are running away from death that one day they will be trapped unaware and produced before Almighty. They will be called upon to answer for their action by Him Who is All-Knowing".

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Death: It never beats you even at a beat.

I bet by now everybody knows Yasmin Ahmad died already. Innalilah. The way she died, a sudden, unexpected death, just like MJ's really had quite an impact on me. I'm not a great fan of these two, its just that what struck me is no matter how rich or how famous you are, you can never escape death. and Death will come to you at the decided time.


The case of Marwa al-Sherbini, who, InsyaAllah is a syahidah for fighting her right to wear her hijab, is really inspiring to me. She died protecting her honour, and more importantly, Islam's honour. A true heroin, a modern role-model for muslim women.


But mine? How would it be? When death comes to invite me, would I be ready to face the consequences of my past actions? The pain for all the sins that I comitted? Ready to face the flames of Hell? I pray that I die as a pious muslim, nothing is more important than that. The quick stint in Earth is just to prepare for the immortality of the afterlife, the Akhirat.


Remembering that, I must repent, change my attitude. He gives me so much in life, yet I can't focus on Him when I solat. I must be a good person as He loves me so much. He tests me, but at the same time, He bestows me the strength and spirit to move on. He gives me friends and family that helps me. I can’t be more grateful to be where I am today. So, tell me, how can I not love Him when He gives me so much?

**Surah Az-Zumar, ayat 53**

“Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): Wahai hamba-hamba-Ku yang telah melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri (dengan perbuatan-perbuatan maksiat), janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, kerana Allah mengampunkan segala dosa; sesungguhnya Dia-lah jua Yang Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani”

Just paintings - Hell is much more worse than this..

Aku takut matiku dengan dosa,

lalu menjadi penghuni neraka.

Takut, kerana mati itu pasti, sedang ajal tidakku ketahui,

Tapi, Ia hilang dalam alpa

Kembali dengan mengingati-Nya

Janganlah Kau jauh dari ku

Janganlah Kau benci diriku

Dimana hendak ku bergantung jika bukan padaMu?

Dimana hendak ku memohon jika bukan padaMu?

Ya Rabb, cintaku untukMu, kekalkan ia dihatiku.

Beri aku kekuatan untuk jauh dari dosa

Kurniakan aku kekuatan agar iman merajai hatiku,

Agar syahadah jadi ucapan terakhirku

Agar matinya aku dalam redhaMu

Quotes:

I am a traveller without a map, but my heart knows where it should go - to Allah's blesings...

A religion without faith, is like walking in an endless maze,

It takes you to a prolonged period of nowhere.